Failure

Why me??? Why are there forces out there that only live to see me fail? Why do they want to play keep away with my only child? When I found out that she was in foster care, I did everything in my power to get her out of there and into my home. Why do they want her to hate me? I left them all to live; I felt dead with them. Why didn't I take her with me? Why did I leave her behind? What have I done? At least I got a chance to be heard. Too bad she's not really listening. I want to run away. I can't look in the mirror anymore. What have I done? I failed you, baby doll. I'm so sorry that I wasn't there. I had to destroy and rebuild myself; I know it's no excuse, but it's the only one I got. Please don't hate me baby doll...PLEASE DON'T HATE ME.