Light at the end of a dark tunnel

I got my court papers in the mail this morning, and it says that Serina will be permenetly turned over to the state of Texas. I'd rather she live with stranger than with Amy's family. I hate those fucks for trying to brain wash my baby doll. My child support came up in the court order...$125.00 a month...NOW THAT'S WHAT I CALL A DISCOUNT!!! originally it was 326 in Oklahoma. This order mean that I can afford to send her stuff like a that zune I bought for her. and hopefully a xbox360 for her birthday with xbox live so we can play games together. talk about some good father/daughter time. The best part of all this is I can still get her back. Hold on tight baby doll. this is gonna be a buppy ride, but it'll end honey... ;-)

Random pic: feeling disgusted with myself.

Failure

Why me??? Why are there forces out there that only live to see me fail? Why do they want to play keep away with my only child? When I found out that she was in foster care, I did everything in my power to get her out of there and into my home. Why do they want her to hate me? I left them all to live; I felt dead with them. Why didn't I take her with me? Why did I leave her behind? What have I done? At least I got a chance to be heard. Too bad she's not really listening. I want to run away. I can't look in the mirror anymore. What have I done? I failed you, baby doll. I'm so sorry that I wasn't there. I had to destroy and rebuild myself; I know it's no excuse, but it's the only one I got. Please don't hate me baby doll...PLEASE DON'T HATE ME.

Moving Right Along

Here's my child custody sitrep: I have finished school, got a good paying job as well as my wife, signed up for parenting classes starting in July, what's left... Oh yeah; a place for us to call home and an established father/daughter relationship. I haven't been able to speak to my daughter almost two months now and I'm starting to get worried; not to mention that my mind is racing, thinking that my daughter hates me and wants nothing to do with me. God help me stay on the right path so that she doesn't have to live with stranger for the rest of her life and please help her see past all of the lies her mother said about me and that she sees that I'm fighting tooth and nail to give her a good life.

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So Far...So Tired

Last night was my first graveyard shift at BoaTRACS inc. The good news is I didn't feel a "crash" til the end of the shift, which was around 7a.m.; the bad news is I may have a slight case of insomnia because I'm having trouble sleeping. I was able to get some rack at around noon, but then I was bombarded by text messages. I've been able to get 2 good power naps in but I'm not sure if that will be enough. Hopefully after the end of this week my body should adjust to my new sleep pattern.

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